Writing this on Memorial Day. Just got home from going to the cemetery with Ty's parents and my mom. We talked about how glad we are to be able to rejoice that Ty and our daughter (granddaughter), Marshay are in heaven. What a blessing it was to then hold hands as Dad prayed thanking our Lord for His faithfulness, acknowledging our loneliness for Ty but still rejoicing in the love and compassion of Jesus for us, knowing that His plan is always the best plan whether we understand it or not. Thankful for Mom and Dad (Ty's folks) and all their encouragement, love and support. So fun to be with them even though being with Dad makes me miss Ty more because Ty was so much like him.
It's been a week of contemplation as Ty's Grandma Farney died. She was 101 years old and ready to meet her Savior. She and Ty shared the same birthday on Christmas Eve. We usually celebrated with a birthday breakfast at Mom and Dad's. What fun that was!! Imagining Ty enveloping his grandma in a big hug as he welcomed her to heaven makes me smile. It also made my heart ache to be there with them. But...my loving heavenly Father reminded me once again that He still has plans for me here, and I need to just keep walking with Him day by day until that day that He takes me home.
After returning home from the cemetery, I once again reached for my Bible and enjoyed some time with Jesus. As I visited with Him, I was reminded how much my faith has grown in the last 3 1/2 years since Ty went to heaven and into the arms of Jesus. I know my Savior so much better now. I know that He is faithful as He has proven to me over and over. Rejoicing in Him today!!! As I was praying, He brought Psalm 39 to my mind. The theme: "Apart from God, life is fleeting and empty." Amen to that!!! Because of my relationship with my Savior, Jesus Christ, I have joy, peace, fulfillment, and contentment in my life now without my sweetheart, Ty. Only Jesus can mend our broken hearts and give us everything we need to carry on in this world. Verse 12 says: "Hear my prayer, O Lord, listen to my cry for help; be not deaf to my weeping." By that verse in my Bible I have written 2 dates--one of which was on another Memorial Day when my kids left to go home and I was particularly lonely. I cried out to my Lord, and He did hear my prayer and reminded me of the HOPE that only He can give. As verse 7 says: "But now, Lord, what do I look for? My HOPE is in You." That's what Jesus has done for me day after day is fill up the loneliness in my heart with more of Him. I continue to be so in awe of Him and His overwhelming love and care for me. As I read through the rest of this Psalm, verses 5 and 6 especially stood out on this Memorial Day as a reminder to how short our lives are here compared to eternity. "You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before You. Each man's life is but a breath. Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro. He bustles about but only in vain; he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it." Then again to verse 7: "But now, Lord, what do I look for? My HOPE is in You." The life application commentary for those verses: "The brevity of life is a theme throughout the books of Psalms, Proverbs and Ecclesiastes. Ironically people spend so much time securing their lives on earth and spend little or no thought about where they will spend eternity. David realized that amassing riches and busily accomplishing worldly tasks would make no difference in eternity. Few people understand that their only HOPE is in the Lord."
My HOPE today is that your HOPE is in Jesus and that you have a personal intimate relationship with Him. If you don't and would like to just click on this word: HOPE to read His personal invitation to you from His Word. A relationship with Jesus is the most important relationship you will ever have. For those of us who do know Jesus I pray that our desire to know Jesus better will increase every day and our focus on this world and the things of this world will decrease. Being on my clothing fast this year is definitely helping me in that area. (I'll share more about that in another post.) As I've mentioned many times here before--NOTHING and NO ONE in this world can meet our deepest needs like Jesus can. As followers of Jesus Christ--remember this world is not our home--we are just passing through until that day when we'll be truly home with Jesus--our Lord and Savior forever and ever! I can't wait--how about you?
I'll close with the song "What a Savior" trusting, as the song says, that He is your Savior, your deepest desire and your HOPE.
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